New Years Blues.

Christmas (I refuse to say xmas, cause that is crossing out the christ!) and my birthday were both better than expected!

Somehow once the 28th creeped around everything went downhill even if I was initally excited about the new year, I lost all hope for the rest of 2006.

It's been a not so great few days.
I really need some cheering up.

I have been quite the bum as of late.

I was rather upset that I had a course cancelled on me last Thursday and Friday, and since my life has gone into a downward spiral of being lazy and not making any money. And going about half a day too long without showering.

I've also somehow managed to watched almost all of season 5 of Scrubs, which I have quite enjoyed, much to the chagrin of my widening ass and my mother demanding I do some cleaning.
In Season 5, Scrubs asserts itself as a distant cousin to Grey's Anatomy:

Elliot: "Let's just go home and watch Grey's Anatomy JD!"
JD: "Yeah, I love that show - it's like they watched our lives and put it on TV"

and also a cousin of House:

Dr Kelso: " Oh Perry, you are like House but without the limp"

I should really get started on this season as it is rumoured to be Scrubs' last!

(In disappointing news, tongiht's Dexter was kind of obvious and not as fun as other episodes... but it gives me hope that the first episode of the new year will be... killer... hahaha)

Something that would never have happenned 3 years ago (during the first season): http://www.fox.com/oc/savetheoc/



When I started posting,I was CERTAIN that I had something more in depth to talk about besides TV.

Oh right.

Living at home is going well. In the sense that I feel that I've refound that comforting cocoon feeling that living at home provides. I feel secure in a childish way - provided for and loved. And comforted when necessary. Ofcourse it's not always smooth sailing - we have argruments, we get moody. But because we are more than roommates, it passes by. Ahhh roommates. I don't miss many of my roommates. Just my two favorite girls from 2nd year, because that felt like a family - maybe we would not have been as close if 4th roommate was spawn of satan, or if life hadn't thrown us as many curve balls when we were together. But when I was with them, I knew they'd be there for me if I was sick, unhappy or excited about something. The worst roommate was Miss Indifference. One of the worst years of my life and she couldn't even pull her hair out of the drain, mind even asking me what was up.

Only thing that bothers me about living at home: not being able to drive. So I started my driving lessons today!!! Road test is booked for January 25... I can almost savour the freedom. And my dad's new LS 460.
:D

I'm getting a little erratic here.. and I don't know who to trust

I refuse to excuse myself for being sensitive.
And I refuse to excuse you for being insensitive.

Ok, so as I mentioned in my last post, I am single (and the sights are looking pretty dreary from here - my last date was at Scallywags for Christsakes!) and coming back to Toronto with new eyes has made me realise that there are so many great places to go on a date here.

Example of what a perfect date would be - well *besides* drunken minigolfing ;)

Wine and tapas here : http://www.jkkitchens.com/content/jk-winebar.html
Ok, so I have never been, but I really really really really want too! With someone who likes wine. And tapas. And listening to me talk and laughing at my bad jokes. And maybe even before or after catching a play. That'd make me swoooon!

I think we need to take a break...

Althought I'm not dating anyone, there are a lot of people which I feel like saying the above too. Friends, co-workers (and sometimes my parents). Even if it's what I'd *like* to say, I usually just take a break from someone by slowly breaking off all contact, many myself inaccessible and busy all.the.time. Actually, I'm doing this with a few people right now but they probably have no idea. (no worries, out of the 4 of you that read this blog - I'm not avoiding any of yous).

Perhaps this could be interpreted as passive-aggresive behaviour. Maybe it is. But what it allows me to do is calm down about what I view to be bad behaviour/insulting/bad manners on their part. A "break" from someone allows you to take time to recognise if you still want them around, and if their behaviour was excusable or if they will suck out your soul if you let them stick around. (maybe "break your spirit" is a better way to describe it).

Sometimes you have inadvertent breaks from people bc of distance, work, school etc. Taking a break from someone can also (if you can) avoid an unnecessary screaming match and/or cat fight. Hmm... now why was I going on about this?

Right. So people change (actually I have seen a few people I thought I knew morph into something rahter unpleasant) so wondering if you want to be friends with the new and improved Dick and Jane is pretty normal. I'm guessing people do it to me ALL THE TIME.

Now I am busy... avoiding people.

I had an interesting conversation with my parents today.

Them: Wow, your brother is 18!!!
Me: I guess that means I can't hit on 18 year olds any more. 19 is now my lower limit!
Mom: Unless it is only the 18 year olds that respond to your advances!
Dad: Yeah, or in your mother's case it's only the 17 year olds that come on to her! (in reference to an event at Peel Pub in Ktown, circa 2003)


Yeah, so it's my brother's age that determines who can be my youngest culprit! hahaha. no, relaly, 19 is still *borderline* acceptable for a 21 year old. Atleast for girls, bc at 19 my boyfriend was 21. haha