singing in the rain. or not quite.

Crazy weather tonight made me bail on my plans to meet up with a friend.

After crazy amounts of family time I spent the night alone at home and watched Hollywood/Bollywood.

Good times on my couch. By myself.

end of the debate

Seems I can't go to grad next week anyways because of problems with a credit and an extra transfer credit. Maintenant je suis frustree que j'ai pas meme pas le choix! Oh, merde. C'est la vie, eh?

I worked this weekend and it was a lot of fun. I really enjoy my part time job - teaching first aid can definitely be frustrating at times, but this weekend almost didn't feel like work. I hadn't done a course since December, but I wasn't too rusty. One thing I love about my job is that it makes me feel so useful.

The weather seems to be a marker for my social life as well. After close to 3 weeks of nothing, I had a great time this weekend.

here's to things going well. :)

graduation.

So, I am torn as to whether I should attend my graduation or not.

Right now, I don't have any desire too at all. And in general I am not one to see the importance in mere ceremony. Much like how I don't see the point in having a wedding, but having a successful long term relationship/marriage. What I have achieved over the past 4 years and where I have failed have marked many rites of passage. I don't know what I will get out of the Queen's chaplin hooding me during a ridiculously long ceremony on June 2nd.
The bigger dilema for me is that my brother's high school graduation is on the same day. He's been at TFS for 12 years now, he's got a chance for a sports scholarship etc... so overall his day seems more significant. For me, him leaving TFS will also mark the end of TFS for me. And he's off to Queen's next year, so I will be back there to visit without a doubt. June 2nd marks not only the end of undergrad, but also the end of my connection with my old highschool. Yes, this might seem like I am suffering from acute nostalgia... but it would be naive to say that TFS has not played a big role in my life and that, mostly due to my brother, I have remain connected to many of the people there for the past 4 years. And thanks to him, I will remain connected to the Queen's bubble, once he goes there in September.

If I go to my graduation I'll be taking my mom away from his. She claims she doesn't really care either way, and that I have a right to my own graduation - but somehow without my Dad and brother there it seems like a waste to go at all.

But, what about regret?
Oh, yeah. I don't do that.

so the honeymoon isn't over yet.
soon after my last post I was sick for almost a week, and it was terrible.
I thanked my parents and called them "mommy" and "daddy" - when that happens you know I am really sick. After that week I was painfully aware of where my right kidney is situated (part of my sickness was a kidney infection) and aware taht I might have perished if it hadn't been for my family.
I haven't really been on the computer much since, because really, my head still hurts a little and the screen bothers my eyes.

last night was quite fun.
maj and claire came by and we played Lyon monopoly.
I had a great time even if claire seemed to get bored after the first 2 hours.

I must say I was happy to stay in, no matter how dorky it sounds.

oh yeah, that and I can't get drunk till my antibiotics are done!

I might be speaking too soon, but so far - all is quiet on the homefront.

It's nice to be home. I think I almost missed it. Then again, I spent no time at home this term except for 4 days during feb break, where I was gone 3.5 of those days to NYC, and then 2 days for easter.
Good food, company and lots of space.

Let's see how long the honeymoon lasts.
I'm taking bets already.